Hello All,

I specifically want to put my lack-of-time, much-too-busy, too-much-going-on-already issue down in black and white.

The current situation (or what I previously would have identified as "the problem"):
I am aching to spend more time on ES. I am a bit of a perfectionist and certainly very enthusiastic, so I want to dive into this ES process body, heart and soul. The reality is I can't. I simply don't have time right now, and if I'm honest it has been like this for months and months. And months. Just pushing myself to get things done, to clear a space for me, to be able to taste, dip in and savour the ES course.

The "problem" as viewed after meditation and reflection:
Thanks to Stever's Daily Disciplines thread where I first mentioned having difficulties finding time to do all the daily disciplines, and some responses where others felt the same, I have been playing about with the 'no time' issue.

I have come to the following conclusions:
a) I freely admit that my not having time is merely a state of mind. I have set about changing my attitude. I accept that I have lessons to learn about how I occupy my time. I spend too much of it doing things that I don't want to do, and too little on what is important to me. Hence a feeling of lack of time, actually, call that no time.

b) I herewith give myself permission to lovingly acknowledge that I have been bought to a point by ES where change is inevitable, unless I choose the path of pain, frustration and masochism - not my style at all!

c) Somewhere inside me lurks a belief (an erroneous belief) that it is good / righteous / healthy / important to be busy. I mean, what would happen if I allowed myself to have TIME? Something inside is unquiet, perhaps I will self-distruct???? The scary thing is that it destabilises me (throws me out of balance) if I relax and do nothing - I won't let myself do that. I keep myself gainfully occupied (that is safe) or else my head starts to chatter so loudly.

There is also some excellent news:
I have realised that I need to develop a new concept of having time - all the time I need - because this is a concrete advance in my personal evolution. Jack keeps talking about how greater success and huge personal goals will put stress on wobbly bits of our systems. If I am to manifest POWERFUL STUFF, I will need to jettison those parts of me which no longer serve me.

My conclusion is the Universe is pushing me to handle more. Now is the time to jettison old time beliefs and create new ones that support exciting, powerful, challenging experiences that are just emerging.

My final insight is that allowing myself to 'feel / experience' having insufficient time is actually a form of resistance. If I resist 'what is', I am simultaneously resisting the better things which are still to come. I need to unblock that time gunk in order to handle more effectively.

The 'solution':
Phew. This is actually quite an issue for me. At this moment I am prepared to make significant changes in how I handle my time. That means letting go of activities that are out of alignment with my new life purpose. My true self feels a sense of excitement and anticipation. My out-moded self is in a state of pure panic, a bit tearful, scared. However I am going to do this. And the first time consuming activity that will be subjected to pruning is my employment. Not the job of my dreams. It has to go in its current shape and form. I set the limits of what work I am prepared to do, it is no longer tenable that my employers decide when, what and how much I do.

If you read this and can empathise, please send me some courage and positive vibrations.
Adieu,
French Claire

A sign from the Universe....

Unbelievable though it may sound...... my watch ran out of batteries today..... I can read two things into this. 1) Time has run out for my out-moded beliefs. 2) Time now stands still for me, I am no longer in a dualistic mode of no-time vs. all-the-time-in-the-world. I can learn to slide the lever in the direction of MORE TIME to grow and reach my breakthrough goal - and that is a VERY AMBITIOUS GOAL - but it is possible!

No wonder my old beliefs are playing up a storm. They know the day of reckoning has arrived. They are due to be released gently, calmly and persistently. I anticipate great new time beliefs to fill the void.

Adieu, adieu

French Claire - If you haven't read 'The Big Leap' by Gay Hendricks, you really should. Chapter 6 is called 'Living in Einstein Time' in which we read 'The Newtonian paradigm assumes that there's a scarcity of time, which leads to an uncomfortable feeling of time urgency inside us.' and then later hear: 'When we switch to Einstein Time,...we embrace this liberating insight: since I'm the producer of time, I can make as much of it as I need!'
It's an amazing concept - but fits right in with the abundance mentality we are learning to live.
May you create a great day and all the time you need!
Margaret Ida

Hi French Claire
I was reading thru these forum posts this weekend- and noticed the theme of ' no time'- I had planned on commenting then. Now that you have requested encouragement- I'd love to offer some.

Simply state your intention to have the time to complete your daily tasks. I know it sounds too easy- but I swear it will work. Time expands and contracts to your perception of it. I'm sure you have had days when you were doing something you truly enjoyed, and were amazed at how you accomplished so much in a day- or days that you felt overwhelmed by all that you had to do- and didn't get anything done!

With the intention to 'have enough time'- you will begin to see ways to rearrange your day, or find that somethings really don't have to be done at all, freeing up the time to do the important things.

As I work thru the ES course, I notice I feel the resistance to taking all the steps, or begin to feel overwhelmed at the changes in my routine ( the routine that isn't bringing me where I need to be :)) - I understand that I need to step back, & intend to have the time- & it appears.

The universe truly does conspire on our behalf- we just have to open the door!

Brenda

Dear French Claire,

I empathise and encourage you!
This statement (quote above) made me smile. Will I self-destruct if I relax and do nothing??? How familiar that sounds to me. I strive to have accomplished everything so that I can finally do nothing. Yet that moment never comes. Mmm...
I've given myself permission to do things I really want to do, but it takes some effort and constant reminding to actually drop those seemingly urgent and important tasks (that are actually only urgent) and do those important things. I'm working on it.
Jacqueline

Hi Margaret Ida,
Thank you for this. I ordered it from Amazon 10 minutes ago. This is another sign of my commitment to change.... here's to my nascent ability to be a producer of time.
Wow, producing my own time sounds as scary as having no time. I will probably live at 100 miles per hour, filling every second of every minute and knowing there are no limits to time as I can produce it myself....
Take care and many thanks,
French Claire

French Claire, thanks for starting this thread. Great posts coming from everyone, all in one day! I am really appreciating how the energy of the forum has been building over the past few weeks.

Margaret Ida, thanks for the recommendation on Gay Hendrick's book. French Claire, following in the footsteps of your initiative, I've just put the book on hold at my local library. I should have it in my hands within a week.

I think "Not Enough Time" is one of those core issues that demands to be reckoned with. I have gotten so much more efficient and productive with my use of time since I began the course, and yet, I still find myself not quite where I want to be regarding my relationship with time. Ironically, one of my primary goals is "I am alert, awake, and absolutely thriving on 4 hours of sleep a night." I have revisited this goal many times in my adult life, and here with doing the ES course, it has shown up again. I suppose having this goal could be an expression of some deep seeded expression of a pathological "I'm Not Enough", birthing the kind of striving for more that reflects an inability to just relax and let be. Yet, the goal feels truly authentic in that there is something in me that is demanding a reconciliation with this desire for more hours in the day for doing what I really want to be doing, even if it means sleeping less (and I really enjoy sleep!)

I have a decent understanding of the physics of time and am curious what Gay Hendricks has to say about "The Upper Limit Problem", etc. But there is also a pragmatic part of me that recognizes that there is an aspect of being in a human form that seems to require coming to grips with limitation, rather than habitually seeking to overcome it. In the past, my desire to transcend those limitations - physical, mental, emotional, temporal, etc. often arose out of a subtle (and at times not so subtle) lack of acceptance of things just as they are and a lack of trust in life as it is right now. These days, I try to keep it simple: fully accept things the way they are (including the incessant need to change them) and see what comes of that. More on that in just a bit.

Returning to pragmatism for a moment, I want to share something that showed up for me yesterday after watching a movie with my sweetie. This was one of those films where afterward I had this sense that I had wasted my time for two hours being mildly entertained, but not truly touched. I have taken to using a form of dowsing (basically a kind of applied kinesiology) to scale possibilities in terms of "level of resonance" (or benefit, if you prefer) from 1 to 10. For example, "On a scale of 1 to 10 (10 being highest) what level of resonance do I have with this particular nutritional supplement (or goal, or daily discipline, etc)? What I have found is that I am getting more of a sense of what different levels feel like in my body so that I don't need to do the procedure all that often. Lately I have found myself unwilling to do certain things that aren't a 7 or above (this started with a bunch of nutritional supplements I was ordering online to help with building toward some of my health goals). Well, last night, after watching this mediocre hollow Hollywood action film and while watching the dishes, the question (y'all know how I feel about questions! ;)), "What would happen if you just stopped doing anything in your life that isn't a 7 or above?"

It occurs to me that given time, sincerely entertaining this the sort of question in time could easily create time, n'est pas? The idea is if something isn't a 7 or above, either don't do it or do something to make it at least a 7. Anyway, I'm curious to see where this one will lead.

Lastly, as much fun as it is to me to throw all manner of ideas around with all you folks, I want to make a pitch for having us reminding ourselves and each other of what is affectionately referred to as the KISS (Keep It Simple, Stupid) model of transformation. Brenda, your post, to me, is a great example of KISS wisdom: You want more time? Intend to have more time. Another great example of KISS came from French Claire today on the Daily Disciplines thread: Wanna know how to save time and get more out of your daily disciplines? Simple... trust your intuition and act on it.

Personally, I think there is value in both complexity and simplicity. Our minds seem to thrive on complexity, however, because we have these things called "minds", at times we can fail to see that life can be quite simple (I, myself, have often fallen prey to a fascination with complexity to the point of complicating my life - a kind of mentally induced suffering). I have a wonderful teacher who was fond of saying, "The purpose of thought is entertainment, only. The question is, how entertained are you?" By the same token, his whole premise was that if one stops looking to habitual thinking mind for answers to one's perceived problems, the answers do come, but from another source (and this is where KISS comes in).

I appreciate the reminders that come from my True Self (French Claire's great term) about keeping it simple. I welcome the reminders from all of you, as well, should you witness me boggin down (as opposed to merely having fun) with my own mental machinations. If any of you would like similar kind of support, I invite you to say so here in this thread. One of my goals has been to co-create a Master Mind Group. I am quite convinced that this forum has the potential to be just that, and it is that spirit that I will continue to extend these sorts of invitations.

Thanks for listening.

Stevers

Hi Stevers
I like your idea of only acting on things that are a 7 or higher- that is something that I struggle to limit myself to. I have to keep reminding myself to ask if this activity is moving me forward, or is it busy work that is interfering with my growth. In the ES course,Jack says to take the 5 actions toward the breakthru goal first, then actions toward your other goals, and only then, do the 'other stuff'. When I follow this- I have a great day- when I don't, when I think the laundry, the errands, & the day to day drugery is more important than my financial and spiritual freedom- I get frustrated & overwhelmed. So, each day, I shift the balance a bit- more toward where I am going, & less time to the stuff that kept me limited.

I am grateful for this forum- I think this could be the place where the 'collective thought & energy' could help us all grow.

Brenda

Hiya Brenda,

Last night I go to do a "do over" on the film game. My partner and I sat down to watch a film called STEEP last night. Before we did, I made a firm commitment to myself to get up and walk away from the video if it wasn't at least a 7. The film ended up knocking our socks off! It's ostensibly a documentary about x-tream skiing, but there is far more being communicated than the mere activity of the thing. You definitely don't have to be an adrenaline junkie to appreciate it. I highly recommend it for anyone doing the ES course.

Thank you for the reminder about "The Rule of 5". Having pretty much dialed in the Daily Disciplines facet of the course, I'd say my new edge is vision and goals. I have a breakthrough goal, but I have not yet been ready/willing to do the Rule of 5 on it. That may be changing soon.

In in the aftermath of the first film experience I described (the one that galvanized for me this idea of 7 or Above), it has hit home that my job/profession/career is the weak link in the chain of "my life as it currently is". My frustration with what I am doing and who I am doing it with (boss, coworkers) has ratcheted way up, and there is clearly a call for attention there.

Here's to raising the bar on our own expectations of how magnificent our lives can be!

Best,
Stevers

Hi Stevers

My job was an area of frustration for me- the part that doesn't fit with my goals & dreams- however, I have found that has changed for me recently. Shortly after starting ES, & focusing on getting it together financially, I was able to move into a position that was basically doing the same job- but for 50% more money. This will help me reach my goals faster- and get away from my job faster as well. You just never know where the abundance will come from! So, even though my job doesn't fit- it is now helping me move toward my other goals at a faster rate!

You talk about movies a lot in your posts- are you a member of the Spiritual Cinema? They have great independent films- the kind that make you think, not the kind that tell you what to think. It's a monthly membership- each month you get a DVD with 3 shorts, & a full length movie- I really enjoy them.

Brenda

Hello Everybody,
This is such a nice forum to share in. Thank you all for your fascinating comments, insights and sharing. I really value that.

I have had a physically uncomfortable two or three days. When I am a little distanced from all the massive change I am causing, I have an excited tickling under my solar plexus. This definitely is a good sign: my True Self is engaged and fully approves of my progress. When I am actually grappling with new concepts, dropping out-moded thinking, and taking on new inspiration, the feeling changes to one of near panic and trepidation. This is my Old Self clinging to old, familiar patterns whether they serve me or not.

As my life purpose deepens and clarifies, I become aware of the extraordinary changes I am going to make. I love the tickly feeling of anticipation and excitement my True Self is generating - I haven't felt this in a long, long time, and I know I'm on the right track.

A nice 'coincidence': I spend about 2 hours driving each day and I had the most awful radio/CD player in the car = rotten sound. My wonderful, talented husband built in a better one so I could do personal development as I drive.

Needing some nice CDs, I reached for ES course three. I wasn't going to 'allow' myself to sample those until such time as I felt I had 'mastered' course two. Accessing course three was to be a kind of reward for excellent work in course two. However his kind handiwork demanded a show of respect/gratitude. It turned out that several of the issues that had been causing me unease were discussed on those 5 CDs. I am so chuffed and grateful AND MOVING FORWARD again in joy.

As I was being buffeted about in the waves of ultra-daring-change, Bill Harris's wonderful explanation of how Holosync works came to mind. (You know his chaos theory which absolutely fascinated me?) The new information, coupled with the life-changes I am undertaking, are causing high levels of instability and chaos in my persona. All I have to do is wait for the whole system to collapse and rearrange to facilitate a new, higher order. This has happened and peace has returned. I am once more integrating new material and generating new insights.

Jack also contributed a lovely metaphor to explain the disturbance of massive change. I just loved his concept of driving a car with wheels out of alignment. The faster one drives, the more that lack of alignment affects the performance of the car, until the vibrations and instability become intense. The vibrations were just a symptom of the wheels being out of alignment with the rest of a car.

Examining and restructuring my beliefs about 'lack of time' was intensely destabilising. My whole being quaked with the force of change. My time beliefs were out of alignment with my higher purpose. I shed some, pruned others, and adopted whole new perspectives on how I am going to operate my current chapter of life. Now my wheels (read 'beliefs') are in alignment with my new life purpose and the actions I am taking each day. The discomfort has receeded and I can handle more change.

Incidentally, I used Holosync to pilot me through the harshest of the vibrations. This pleases me. I can visualise how Holosync topples my systems over, allowing them to reorganise to a higher capacity. And this is what seemed to happen. As soon as I put on my earphones, I was off, systemising the internal chaos. I am now calm, focused and reorganising my concepts concerning my higher purpose. Several daring and exciting next steps are emerging. I have a action plan that would have been unthinkable two months ago. Now I find the ideas feasible, exciting, even thrilling. And I do like my life to be a thrill.

As I calmly motor forwards, wheels nicely aligned once more, I am able to offer gentleness and understanding to my husband who is wobbling all over the motorway, and a dear friend who is crisesing as she grapples with the gigantic (for her) changes she needs to make.

I wish you all happy motoring and a safe, exciting destination.
Adieu,
French Claire

Hi Brenda,

I was a member about 4 years back, but found that the quality of the films trailed off after an initial flurry of what I found to be provocative stuff. I find that many, many "regular" films, carry with them aspect that point to what I'll call, for lack of better term, "the experience of awakening", whether or not that was actually the film maker's intent. This extreme skiing documentary, STEEP, is, I think, one of them.

I truly love film, and I seem to be most drawn to ones that remind me of my own deeper humanness, even if the apparent subject matter isn't of an overtly spiritual looking nature.

All that said, if someone in my neighborhood were hosting a Spiritual Cinema Circle gathering, I imagine I would regularly attend. Then again, perhaps I will look into it again, myself.

Regardless, thank you for asking!

Stevers

Hi Stevers
I have only been a member of the Spiritual Cinema for about 8 months-& have really enjoyed what I've seen. But things seem to travel in cycles- & I may find it doesn't fit at a later date.

I too find that movies & books resonate at a different level as my awareness grows, and generally I find I am drawn to what I need to realize in books & movies that have nothing to do with 'personal growth'. The truth remains the same, whether it is revealed in a story, a biography, or sold in a seminar. I think that once you know it- it is evident everywhere.

I'll look for STEEP- it sounds like an enjoyable experience-thanks!

Brenda

Brenda,

Thank you. I couldn't have said it better!

Enjoy the film, and, if you're so inclined, let me know what is reveals to you with the experience.

Cheers,
Stevers

PS: In reading back through this thread I realize I forgot to congratulate you on the shift that "happened" with your work position that now has you earning 50% more. Sweet!

Hi Stevers

I am travelling this week- I'll look for Steep when I get back home

Brenda

Hello Margaret Ida and others,
I just wanted to say that the book you recommended has arrived already. I am coming down with a cold, so I'm off to bed with a hot drink and "The Big Leap: conquer your hidden fear and take life to the next level".

So I will take my life to the next level. Watch this space.
Adieu

We hope you will recover soon. You are eliminating old feelings with your cold!

Margaret, French Claire, et. al.

I finished THE BIG LEAP by Gay Hendricks on Monday, and I'm now on my second read. Besides the chapter on Einstein Time, which I found intriguing, I think the way he describes the "Upper Limit Problem" is terrific. It appears to me to be a great lens through which to observe ones thoughts and behaviors in order to recognize when our own internalized conditioned capacities for peace, ease, joy, pleasure, success and/or abundance have been exceeded. I have been practicing what he calls "The Ultimate Success Mantra" and noticing the ways that my internal thermostat (i.e. my conditioned mind) kicks in to attempt to keep my within a comfort zone that is equally conditioned and arbitrary. I have noticed myself more readily avoiding pitfalls of negativity (in the form of worry, criticism, and/or blame) that would have claimed me before, and feeling positive and at peace more of the time during the course of the day. It impresses me that continuing to bring awareness to my "Upper Limiting" thoughts and behaviors in the ways that Gay Hendricks has recommended is a very good way to build an even more solid foundation of positive vibration from which to create a more desirable life.

Thanks, again for the recommendation, Margaret! French Claire, let us know what arises for you with your reading as you regain your health.

Stevers

I am also waiting for my copy of the book. It sounds most interesting.

Hi Uniquesoul,

I'll look forward to hearing your experience/take as well!

Stevers

Margaret Ida, thank you so much for recommending this book; "The Big Leap: Conquer your fear and take life to the next level". This book contains data I need to put a few more pieces into place.

It is another case of 'perfection' (life being just perfect, unfolding just as it is meant to) in action. Margaret Ida suggested it to give an insight into my not-having-enough-time game that I am now stopping playing.

From the first page I had this tickle in my solar plexus. This book (also) deals with Upper Limits. In the introduction he defined the 'research problem' thus:
"I have a limited tolerance for feeling good. When I hit my Upper Limit, I manufacture thoughts that make me feel bad.[...] I seem to have a limited tolerance for my life going well in general. When I hit my Upper Limit, I do something that stops my positive forward trajectory. I get into a conflict with...., or a money bind, or do something else that brings me back down within the bounds of my limited tolerance."

Now guys, I met my bogey man face to face in the pages of this book. I read the self-sabotaging behaviours others indulge in to scale down their bliss, and I wholeheartedly agreed. I can point a finger at many of my friends and family and see exactly how true it is. I saw how my dear daughter beats herself up when she is successful. I saw my husband producing works of perfection and simultaneously generating nonsense about how he lacks this, that or the other in order to really shine. And, nodding wisely to myself, I know this is a mere smokescreen, a way to ensure they don't really relish their mastery.

A couple of voices inside me shouted to catch my attention. They wanted me to know that I indulge in the same burst-the-bliss-bubble behavior. But, you know, try as I might, I could not find a single example of me indulging in this kind of lunacy. I genuinely had a total blind spot. I could see the problem when applied to others. I knew it applied to me. But when I looked, I kind of went into a slippery trance. It was an amazing experience to be prepared to look and find on the one hand, and still have a part of me which refused to look, to focus.

The blindness didn't last long. Hendricks has some pretty powerful spotlights. My bogey men have been ushered into broad daylight. They are called Worry, Critism, and Argument. I critisize those around me to spoil the mood (just imagine, until now, I thought I was fairly tolerant and non-judgemental of others. I genuinely believed that. I believed I only critisized others if it were in their best interests - and gently.) Now I know better. If life is going particularly well (tripping my Upper Limit switch), then I pull a critisism out of my mighty arsenal, and aim it straight at my unsuspecting victim's heart. Launch, attack, counter-attack, justify, justify, and if I'm really into it, perhaps an argument will ensue. End of a pleasant, sunny evening on the terrace. We all feel bad. I can do nothing about it (after all I only told the truth, and the truth is "the truth".)

From this minute onwards, well-meant advice is re-labeled as critism, I will not indulge in worry as a mechanism to destroy my peace-of-mind, and I will not participate in arguments. I agree with Hendricks. These are games I have been playing - playing BLINDLY.UNCONSCIOUSLY.

Apart from a book with important lessons for me, I love some of his terminology. He calls goals a 'commitment to himself'; he writes of living in Zones of Competence, Excellence and Genius. ES means moving into the Genius Zone.

This is a wise book. I have a white board hanging up on my bedroom wall. I copied this out (from page 93):
"[Claire] got the message on time to wake up and handle the situation. She has one big task ahead of her: building her new home in the Zone of Genius. She has to say no to a lot of her former [and current] activities and yes to dreams and visions that are simmering within."

Stevers, you are already on your second read. I think I will have to read this book several times in order to really 'get it'.

Adieu,
French Claire

So, French Claire, how do you correct your children as part of their upbringing? Maybe your children always act in an impeccable way.

At the office there is a big policy about constructive criticism. However, it is still criticism. Lots of times people just follow the advice of the boss for a while, but then keep falling back in their old habits. In my view, if most employees had higher awareness, everything would run smoothly. It is like nobody needs to be told to breathe. Whoever decides not to breathe, will die after not too long.

I want to come back to my original posting about not having enough time.

Nothing is static, change is ever-present. My beliefs around time are shaped by each new input or experience. And the reason for my writing this new contribution is a new insight I got from Gay Hendricks' book "The Big Leap: Conquer your hidden fear and take life to the next level".

Obviously I realise that I can only get so much done in a day. That if I wash up, clean the house, etc in my 'free' time, then there is less or no time for things that are important to me (such as ES, creating the job of my dreams etc.) It is about choice. But often one is so out of one's Zone of Excellence (to use another Hendricks phrase), that the mundane (having a clean kitchen, clean clothes to wear) overshadows the divinely creative (the space I want to spend more time in).

However, there may be a much more inspirational, pressing reason for my ongoing feeling of "not having time". Currently I don't have time for that which is important to me. Imagine my excitement when I read the following sentence in Hendricks' book: (page 126) "If you're like most of us, you feel sad or irritated about the amount of your precious time that gets eaten up in the necessary trivia of your day. As you get more successful, it's common to feel a mounting pressure about this issue, an unnatural hurry-up tht feels unhealthy to your well-being. I believe that the sense of mounting pressure is the call to live in your Zone of Genius. I've seen it disappear with miraculous speed when people opened up to wondering about what their true genius might be."

I can say that this nugget of wisdom is exactly applicable to me. My work is not my life's work (though it does contain some elements of it: helping and motivating people; making complicated things simple) (guess what! I'm a teacher). Certainly housework is not my calling. However, at the moment ES is. I only need to open that folder, or clap on the headphones, or meditate, or Holosync, or Release (via Sedona), or bandy ideas around on this site..... and hey presto, I am BLISSFUL. If I can't manufacture time to do ES-related things, I get this time-pressure feeling (a downbeat, low-vibrational thing). If I play around with my true self, make excursions into my Zone of Genius (a la Hendricks) or Life Purpose (a la Canfield), the insights come, I am happy, happy, happy.

Another insight: I am sick right now. Too sick to work but not too sick to travel into my Genius Zone. Wish me a fruitful excursion.

I wish anyone who reads this a day of divine inspiration too.
Adieu,
French Claire

Happy fruitful excursion into the Genius Zone!

We all need to attend daily contingencies, like cleaning the house, cooking, doing the laundry, etc. The only way out is to get another person to do for us out of kindness or through payments. If you live alone like I do, then I am the master of my own universe, so I can devote lots of time to meditation, personal development, etc.

So what's the solution about the lack of time? My copy of Gay Hendricks' book is on its way to Australia. I hope to get it next week.