Well, now this is very interesting. I can understand how frightened you must be, but IMHO, there might be signs of hope here! Really!
Now, you say you have seen no improvement, and while I do understand that 6 months might seem like a long time, it is not (unless you have only had these problems for a couple of months before)
However, I do salute you for putting in 2-3 hours every day. That is awesome!
And there is a good sign, possibly: you say that "I have gotten worse". Now, first of all, I think what you must mean is the
symptoms have gotten worse. You don't get worse. It might seem like a trivial or subtle distinction, but an important one.
And secondly, the fact that anything has "gotten worse", is very interesting. Why? Have you talked to your health care professional about this "getting worse"? If so, they must have some opinion. Do they believe that this due to the 2-3 hours of practice?
In any case, while this might not seem to be a good thing right now, the truth is that change can often be a good thing, even if it seems like it has "gotten worse". When energy blockages move, things change. If nothing had changed in 6 months, one way or the other, while I would still hold that 6 months might not be long enough, I would wonder why there is no change in any direction.
But in this case, I think that you are indeed moving the energy! And if something has "gotten worse" it could well mean that you are on the verge of success.
I have experienced this myself in many ways in my practice. A small example (or maybe it is more like a metaphor or a parable, because it cannot be compared to the severity of your conditions):
When I sit in lotus to meditate, it hurts. It is still new for me and it hurts. Sometimes quite a lot. Once I get into the meditation, the pain recedes for awhile, but often comes back. And at a certain point it feels like it has "gotten worse"! A lot worse! And I just want to stop the meditation.
Sometimes I do. But what I have noticed and what I have learned from MAster Lin, is that if I am willing to go past the point where it seems the worst, that is where my breakthrough comes.
Now, obviously, I can't promise this for someone else.
But in your case, based on what you have written about things changing and the fact when you do Level 2, you feel somewhat better are both good signs, though one feels better than the other.
I think I partially agree with our monkbiker friend, in that I would let go of the need to detect the blockage. And I think you can apply his advice to your question, and not only with Level I, but also with Level II.
In other words, don't be concerned about the detecting, but work on yourself, where you think the blockages, might be. As you say, the lungs are a good place to start, after opening up the C7 point. Use the lung clearing technique on yourself, after opening up the parts of the spinal cord relative to the places you are going to work on. Open up the windows of the lung parts as it describes in the Level II instructions. Do the lung clearing technique.
The Level II active exercises might help you a bit also. Both the standing posture exercises, as well as the Cloud Hands and 10,000 Hands Practice, seem to help me with my energy levels.
What are the messages that you give yourself when you do your meditations and active exercises? This is key. ALthough putting the time in is also important, the message, signal and information that you communicate to you body are also very important. Maybe even more so.
Emphasize as you begin that "I am getting better, I am healing, my channels are open, I have more energy, my breathing is normal" etc. Tell yourself this with as much intention and intensity, as you can throughout your day.
Also, you might want to do the finger massage technique for the lungs from Level II.
You are indeed making progress. Don't worry so much about where the organs are or where the blockages are: the energy will go where it needs to. If you want to visualize it more and need to know where everything is, an anatomy book can be helpful or you can go to this webpage, that I like:
http://www.innerbody.com/htm/body.htmlAnd as for detecting, I can relate!
I still have some problems with detecting. I asked Master Lin about this. He said just keep practicing and it will come. It is important to trust whatever comes up, no matter how it comes up: a feeling, an image. a thought, whatever. Just trust the first thing that pops up. I have done this and have found some remarkable almost miraculous progress sometimes.
But as for you specific issues, don't let your progress in detecting stop you. I think you are making great progress. I repeat: both the symptoms seemingly getting "worse", and your feeling better after practicing Level II techniques on yourself and your animals are VERY good signs!
You are doing great! Keep up the good work!
