Replying to SteveBCA's question from "Abundance for Life/You are where you are because you are"...
[QUOTE]SHEANIMA, do you mind if I ask which Paraliminals you said you were gaining from? Thanks [QUOTE]
The very first product that I purchased was the PhotoReading Personal Learning Course, but for various reasons, I could never stay with it, so I set it aside. I liked the Personal Genius tape, and it helped me immensely in lots of other areas. But there were still issues that were holding me back, that I couldn't yet identify and overcome. Then recently I began giving serious application to the Anxiety-Free and Self-Esteem SuperCharger tapes, and listened to them 4 & 5 times more per day than what the instructions called for. I was desperate for fast results, and I got them. My mind began to flow with various creative ideas on how to handle the debilitating problems I faced, and through persistent experimenting, I finally crossed over the threshold of freedom in those areas.
But if it weren't for God, I would not have given the anxiety and self-esteem tapes a second chance. I had been suffering from extreme anxiety for the past few years, and had finally surrendered to going to a doctor, which is something I had been totally against doing. Oh, how I did not want to do that! I just couldn't see myself on drugs, for something I felt that I could overcome myself.
About a week before the appointment, I had reached my wits' end. One late evening, after another night of fighting insomnia, and in deep despair, I dropped to the floor on my knees, buried my face in my arms face-down on the carpet, and sobbed like a little girl. I cried out to God for healing, and had some words with Him. It was the next day, I think, that something strongly urged me to get out those Paraliminal tapes (which had been on the shelf and forgotten for almost a year) and listen to them again. I thought, "But why should I try them? They didn't work before. Why should they work now?" But I obeyed the quite voice and began listening. And they started working. A light bulb went off in my mind, and I realized why they hadn't worked for me before. You see, I had mistakenly thought that I could just listen to them passively, and the magic would happen. But this time I discovered that, even though passive listening is okay, what really catapults results is by listening actively, and DOING WHAT PAUL'S VOICE SAYS TO DO!
So it's only within the past few days that I have been relieved from years of literal mental hell. As for the self-forgiveness part, this took place before I tackled the anxiety, because I needed to first work out the things that I knew were seriously troubling me. So I sat down at my computer and wrote to God. Then I let the answers come to me, as I typed, as if He were speaking personally to me (which I believed by faith that He was). I was determined to find a way to come to terms with my past, present, future, and the hereafter. What-if's and other dreadful fears can drive a person absolutely batty, not to mention wrong teachings. This method did not stop the anxiety, but it did resolve the legitimate fears. At this point, the only thing left that I was anxious about was the dreaded anticipation of the anxiety, itself. Learning Strategy's Paraliminal tapes gave me a way to conquer every one of those enormous challenges, including the final fear of fear, and I will always be eternally grateful for it.
I'm going to continue with these tapes for the next month, until I feel comfortable about taking on the PhotoReading course. I feel like I've been living in a mental torture chamber in a prison camp nightmare for the past 2 years. So it's going to take a little time for my nerves to recoup, and become accustomed to thinking normally, again. I've been doubling up on the food supplements, and taking care of myself, and exercising, which has also helped the process.
Yes, I have finally stepped through the door into peace and liberty, and I am truly thankful. I hope and pray that it stays like this. I am standing and speaking in faith that it will. 
[This message has been edited by SHEANIMA (edited September 10, 2004).]
