I posted my main question on the teleseminar post but since then I've come across an excellent website for escaping depression called
http://www.clinical-depression.co.uk/learning_path.htm A full comprehensive free ebook is available to download or read through thier site. I've been reading thorugh it and found it insightful - especially exploring the new link between depression, over-dreaming, exhaustion and the depression cycle.
More importantly I have a real sense it will be helpful to me (along with the resilliency course.)
P.S. I really like saying "I'm so confused" instead of "I'm so depressed", thanks alex :-).