Hi Jade
My wife's first language is not English. When we listened to my mothers copy of the Self Esteem CD, I loved it right away, and it took my wife a few tries before she felt a difference.
I have noticed a number of common themes in my professional work counseling immigrants, that may benefit you.
I am just wondering what culture you came from, and what culture you are presently living in...
In the meantime, sometimes it might help if you reframe your intended outcome, that is, try stating it in different ways. Even in different languages! Just make sure it is stated in a positive way, what you want...not what you don't want.
And as we used to say in the early days of NLP, "How do you eat an elephant?" "One bite at a time!"
BTW, ALex' observation is right, your written English is great...and I could guess that as your third language, you may have a talent for communication...