You'll need to disassociate your love for reading from academics. With studying you have developed what looks like performance anxiety. Either you were studying something that you don't want to be doing for the rest of your life. (Often the case where one feels pressure to do a course of study "because it will pay well.").
The non conscious mind has set about protecting you from ...limbo?
You will need to find topics of interest for you and then use Anxiety Free to help you overcome reading anxiety. If you are a PhotoReader You might want to just do the PhotoReading step on the book to get okay with handling books and being curious about them.
On the academic front I recommend New History Generator.
You are already doing a lot to take care of this sensibly. You will need to continue to give yourself time.
With New Behaviour Generator and Anxiety Free you'll have a good start. Also if the pressure to succeed academicly came from other people or you even perceived it as pressure from other people (instructors and teachers included) Get out Perfect Relationship so you can stop them from pushing your buttons.
Alex