It doesn't mean you don't want it. It means it is going to be just out of your reach as long as you word it that way.
So say something like I allow myself to work flexible hours.
I allow myself to work joyously at helping /coaching others to achieve their full potential.
I allow myself to present the information they need with confidence, to individuals and in groups.
I allow myself to live happily in Canada earning $x income
You could also try "I intend" or "it is my intention" instead of "I allow" however I would then add an expected achievement date. Make your current affirmations/ goal postive statement clear as possible. Positive and in the present tense. It allows you to take action on them now instead of some future date. Your statement can still be open enough to let you discover what you want to do exactly.
Alex
