Hi, Golion!
I'm definitely an *expert*... (you know what an expert is? An "ex" is a has-been, and a "spurt" is a drip under pressure.) <grin>
I've been where you are. In fact, I'm a little bit there now! The biggest difference is that I know that I'm moving out of stagnation, now, into a wider, bigger, more fun and successful universe.
So, how do you do it? Get *any* of the Learning Strategies program... and follow the instructions. Abundance for Life, which I just started, has *everything* you need to transform your life. (And no, I don't work for LSC, but I've been successfully using their paraliminals and Photoreading for years now.)
The fact that you are feeling what you are feeling is a good sign. It shows you are ready to make a big shift. Your non-Conscious Mind is pushing you. Just get the program, and follow the directions. Don't even worry about whether you're doing it *right*... just do it.
Then, as you think more about what you *want*, and less about what you don't want, you'll see changes.
Good Luck,
MoonLion