This morning I asked myself before arising, as my back was really hurting yesterday and this morning, "what are you stressed about?" and then just let my mind drift. I actually covered my head with the blanket at one point. I almost started crying too. The answer kept being that I miss my dad who passed away in November over Thanksgiving after a long 7 year illness. I'm pretty sure this is it, as I am kinda emotional right now just writing about it. There is guilt too - intellectually I know there was no other option but a nursing home for the last 2 years but he hated that place and used to beg me to take him out of there. He was only 65 when he had to go to a nursing home. We visited several times a week and in the beginning and the end we visited every day so I know I did my best.
Anyway, my mind kept answering "grief and guilt" - then I would self talk myself about why that shouldn't be.
So how do I release this? Emotions are very hard for me. It is like I know why intellectually I should not feel this way but .....
I tried EFT with a practitioner and on my own last fall and didn't feel any results .....
Is there a paraliminal that can help me to release? Either in AFL or the Paraliminal CD Library?
For some reason the Sprin Forest program does not call to me.
Lisa
