sjaykum1, I think the person that knows what he wants is a very lucky person. For several decades my want/goal was to be happy. It sounds good, modest, and achievable. After loosing much of it, it took a long time for me to learn that it's not a goal, it's much more of an attitude.
Anyways I started this post with the idea of passing along, at least part of an excerise I got from an Anthony Robbins course. Goal setting. To find out what you want and want to do, first write a list. A big list, and exhaustive list. One that is not limited by reality. One that not limited by rules or values. One that contains all of your desires WITHOUT limits. You right them all done. Every last one of them. You don't worry if they are good or bad, possible or impossible, if they can just exist your fantasies. You write them all down. You don't care if they are general or if they are specific or if they overlap. You write, and write and write until you can't come up with anymore.
The second step is to select five that you ARE going to work at achieving this year. You can rephrase them, maybe make up new ones that occur to you, but just five. However, not you have to worry about reality, since you have to work on them. You have to make sure your desires (goals) are in alignment with your values system. If they are not in alignment, then you will work against yourself and prevent yourself from achieving them....
There is more to this excerise, but that is the goal selection portion. I found it helpful, but I felt like you do, namely:
" Kaiden: You ask what is that I ultimately want? I think I have asked that question to myself for years. I ended up saying that I dont know what I really want. Maybe I do but it is hidden in me where I can not find it or grasp it?"
Good luck, Iam2 
