Thanks, rewriting my self dialogue is the first step, next its obsessing over my studies (cryptology,mathematics,computer science), and the final would be realizing as kaiden says, that everyone is unique but interchangable. Also i am going to try that seduce 10 others thing (i got 3 so far), but not be too serious about it fixing my problem. The main reason it makes me unhappy is that i "lost" a personal challenge, and if i give up on it totally i will never be able to make the game a "draw" rather then a loss, maybe this sounds weird but it challenges one of my core principles ("If enough effort is put in any endeavor the desired result will be produced"). The only problem seems to be that its keeping me from what i really want to do (again paradoxal), and that is Image Stream, Photo Read, Work on math problems, and learn a few more computer languages!! (good grades would be nice too)
Thanks Again, ill try
