thanks man!!!!

i really appreciate all the advice. Its just it feels so real the feelings, and everyones sensitivity levels are different...

its confusing cause you dont know which mental exercises to do and what habituation techniques to follow. i am just very angry because ive wasted so much time with this crap ( i ll be 24 in june) and i am not even sure where to start with it.

One thing i did notice is, that when u start facing the fears and what not, there is this abundunt hyperness and elation adn that may in deed be the main problem, i am not sure. its hard knowing where to start.

theres also this guilt u have thinking you brought this upon urself. (maybe if the solutions seem trivial the problems arent? )

i will look into the methods!!!
thanks
peace and kindess!