Well, whatever the case, you know that you were concerned and confused. At least you can be certain about that. You know you were in that particular state at the time you wrote that message.
Why not take a breather and get yourself oriented in the present? You could, if you wanted, cut off communication with this chic and take some time to get your head on straight.
I found "insects" to be a curious word. Used for its phonological ambguity with "in sex"? Sounds interesting.
If this chic is a manipulator, you sure had a rather intense response to her.
You can know that your unconscious is very protective of you. It is what can slam the foot on the brakes of your car when it detects the need to, even though you may not have seen the danger consciously. It makes you blink if something might get in your eye. It even makes people take a different route to where they want to go if they unconsciously detect a threat on their current path.
Sounds to me like you were more confused from interacting with her than not. I guess it's a simple question: how do you want to feel? Does this person bring you closer or farther away from it?
You make your own choices. No one can make them for you. Be a man and decide what you want.
