I thought that if she was trying to use seduction she wants something more than just a friendship. She always had the idea that we were just friends, but she still used seduction on me. I don't know if I know what she really wanted. It sounds silly to try to seduce someone and then say we are always just friends. Kaiden was right, you have to know what the girl wants and I've never really thought deeply about what her intentions were. Maybe she just wanted to drive me crazy. Say she wants me kind of thing, but that's a lie and then push me away. Like some kind of tease and game to frustrate the men who choose her. Maybe she loves teasing and titillating her men. She always has the upperhand then. She feels she has the power. Another aim I think she could be trying to achieve is to have men who hang on to her, like bees to a flower.
She did satisfy my desires to a certain degree, I had some idea of what I wanted. She seemed to meet the expectations. But now I see her as the above. I'm clear I don't want a relationship where she thinks I'm just sweet. You know how little girls are with little boys - something like don't touch me, but kiss my feet - a power game. She also goes through men fast and furiously, living with this man then that. I've just been foolishly hanging on waiting for my turn.
On the other hand she might be confused, but I don't like the dishonesty, it creates problems. I want to communicate right to the heart of a person, I don't want games. As for sobriety, I'm improving, but I've had very little experience with girls. My little experience with girls, means I have alot to learn still. However I do have a sister, one advantage.
Thanks for your responses you have given me alot to think about.
Regards
Grant
