Hi Matt,
To add to the previous messages... Do you know what you are going to do with you life? What are your goals/wishes/etc... in life? Since you have been doing SFQ you must have had some kind of goals in doing it. Check if any of those goals accidentally "caused" your present condition. ?
Because... Unconscious minds are sometimes "stupid" they can understand your good intentions in an entirely different way. Unconscious minds take the meaning of words very literally.
Some people talk about well-formed goals. I guess that's what I'm talking about, too.
Anyway, this is just a guess, and you definitely need help before you can dive in this. I wish you luck, you'll need it!
Be well,
-purjo 
