I swear, if there is an answer to terrible problem of mine, it'll be a miracle if I find it.
If having this disorder wasn't bad enough, it feels like the solution - if their is a solution - is trying it's best to stay hidden from me. Almost like the universe is just taunting me, pushing me, trying to see just how much I can take before I snap and do something borderline to insanity.
Wow, what a crazy predicament I'm in. 
