yeah but isnt all that stuff abstract?
what about the other way of doing it?
thats where im lost
explaining length gives me no feeling i guess
or colour
i do not get what i am missing out on
like someone who never felt the wind
how do i know im not making up details as i go?
this end is 3mm
is it?
or did i make myself think it is to make it easier and it gets me nowhere
my problem is i ask too many questions
im supposed to stay an idiot lol
i have to make up the image to desribe it but i cannot get it clear in my head
i think my school years crushed my visual imagination
musically sure no problem
ill think up 5 tunes while typing lol
i really am lost
thankyou for trying to help me but i really have no clue how to make any of it happen
i cannot draw like i used to
i can still do it but my mind is so dry of ideas of what to draw
maybe i should give up any rational logical things like trying to do my math and grammar
maybe nothing of this is helping me
i wish to be a master of many trades not a master of one or jack of all
i can lucid dream and imagine it so vividly but my day dreams have never been present
when i close my eyes i see black and nothing
no image in my mind
well the only thing i can see sometimes is electronic like blue pulses but ive no idea what that is about
i've got no idea where to start basically
ive been doing it in the tape recorder
but my problem is i stop after about one or two words
usually "it is" or "there is" and then nothing
it does not come to mind
though id like to know where it is and why it will not come
