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when ever i am motivated or ask for help i never succeed
what is wrong with me?

i find myself slipping deeper back into depression after such a long struggle with it

like trying is hurting me
that is the mindset im in nowdays

it is bad i know but i cannot escape it
also if i do not try i also get hurt
so everything i do seems to do harm so i wish i could do nothing

lol im like the psychologist who can never fix Himself

i move from times of clarity to times or confusion over what is unclear and why it is unclear
it all feeds itself
im really tired really fed up and i know not how to run away

ive given up my studies as from now
i feel it will only drag me furthur into doubt about my own abilities

sorry about whining alex but i guess ill always have it inside and noone can help me when it is there
im not helping myself by keeping it

i keep trying to tell myself im good and smart and creative and all sorts of on screen affirmations and audio subliminals

but at the end i deny if further

and all the while trying to realise there is nothing wrong with me lmao

should i try?

Does analysis paralysis work?

Have you even tried describing a pencil or object with your eyes open like I suggested. Something that is in front of your nose?

Do you make it up? I had the impression you were a Buddist... surely you know it's all Maya? It's all made up by our minds.

We choose what we see, what we notice, what we hear and what we believe. You want to believe so badly that you can't yet your post show your skills to be otherwise.

You sure do manage a wordy description of your inability

Prana, it's obvious to me you can do it. You just need to transfer the skills and not lean on the crutch of excuses. Something else that you are very good at

Alex

[This message has been edited by Alex K. Viefhaus (edited January 03, 2005).]

analysis paralysis
never heard of these two terms together

i have tried much of what the earlier genius code and einstein factor tells me to try

like from one point of the room describe a corner in different ways

i can't get close to imaging yet
i cannot describe my room although i can visualise it

other than abstract names and relativity

yes im buddhist and i do know its all a creation of my mind though the problem is that i cannot seem to create, in my mind, me realising how to escape from it all

its simple to know what you want to do in life but much harder to do it

i guess im better at picking out faults because that is what has happened to me my whole life

ive never been appreciated in my life for anything ive done good

probably more from just you in a few posts
thankyou ever so much Alex

and a second thanyou for putting up with me
lol
everywhere else kicks me out