Yo Grant...
Re: "What am I up too"...
I read your talk of "NLP", and a "stuckness"... I see it as everybody has degrees of various mental illnesses... Heck! this culture and society is seriously very mentally ill...
I see it like you are a pure Being, with a little something stuck to it... like a new frypan with a little bit of burnt greese stuck to it... Underneath the greese is a pure clean newish frypan...
Are you familiar with the mind magic thingy in which you imagine pulling mud or guck off your Being, using your physical hand, and your cosmic hand superimposed?
Maybe you just need to clean your "frypan"...
I am doing this for myself, almost daily...
It seems there's no end to the damage this culture has caused my Being...
Sometimes I wonder what I'd be if I had been in a good wholesome atmosphere all my life... Trying to repair the Past is one hell of a task... and can be done with the right tools... which seems to be what this most of this forum is about...
Maybe your "mental illness" is really pure sanity showing itself... and the crazies only label you as they need, so to maintain their levels of doubt and non-reality, when facing truth and reality...
Maybe deep inside you just don't want a relationship, while some of you always does want to get in on some of the American dream... But without the bleeding hastles and pains...
