Dear John (Caddepa),

As you probably know, I've been reluctant to post for some time. Your earlier post, especially your fourth point, spoke to what has become both my biggest dilemma concerning the Holosync issue and my primary reason for having stopped posting: the silence of the other 400+ "graduates."

Until and unless I can compare my own experience with the experience of some of the others, I don't feel I have anything of value to contribute. My predicament is that I can't honestly come down on one side or the other. One would think that having completed all twelve levels, a person would be able to give some definitive advice, but the truth is, I have as many questions as everyone else.

If it were to turn out that the other graduates are indeed "blissed out" (as Bill claims they are) I would, despite my personal disappointment, become a vocal proponent of the technology, cautioning people to take my results with a grain of salt. But if it turns out my experience is not anomalous after all, I would become an equally vocal detractor. It's very frustrating that I don't have anyone who's also finished the program to talk to about this.

During my time on HS, I really didn't give Bill Harris a second thought, just quietly went about the program. Other than reading the support letters and making the occasional calls to order a new level, I had no contact with Centerpointe and no opinion either way. After participating on the Centerpointe board and learning how CRI had responded to other posters about my experience, I did form an opinion, and not a flattering one. I resented their quick dismissal of me -- "she had unrealistic expectations," "she was just someone wanting a new life handed to her on a plate," "she didn't have a clear focus...," etc.

Many seem satisfied that Bill's over-the-top advertising encourages people to participate in the program. I'm not a fan of the "ends justify the means" philosophy, especially to have it used against me when I express some disappontment: I basically felt they called me an idiot for ever having believed what they themselves had told me.

Still, with all that said, I never did (and still can't) say that the technology isn't worthwhile for most people. I will have to continue to be frustrated with the silence of the graduates.

John, I think your advice was excellent -- unemotional and realistic.

Sincerely,
Cilla