The first thing I would reccommend is that you decide to get out of this rut. The second is that you sit down with pen and paper and deide what direction you are going towrds. It doesn't really matter just pick a goal and get moving towards it. Don't try and move away from your past.
Usually when a person's energy level is low they get alot of the things you speak of. You mention the healing process and for these reasons I would reccommend Spring Forest Qigong. Take advantage of the weekend healing meditation as well. With daily practice you should see a big improvement.
Jeff
