Thanks Alex for your reply. It helped me to see a way out of the judgement loop I am in at the moment. When I move into "other growth areas" I will often be upset at and judgemental toward myself for shifting my focus. Now, when those feelings come up I can remind myself that it is all growth not laziness.
You also said: "we go into everything we do as the same person"
Sometimes I feel as if I am several different people depending on the outside environment and depending on the other people I am with at the moment. I feel as if there are so many different parts of me inside of me that gather around a core and reflect different parts of the world. I have a wide variety of interests so much so that if always feels as if there is not enough time to do them all. One positive outcome to all of this is that I am never bored.
Thanks again for your reply
Nickie
