Hi Ingrid

Thanks for your reply. As regards my work I work flexible working hours which means I choose to work from 7am till 5 pm. This effectively means I work five days in four, in other words I work a four day week and get every Friday off work. I also work Saturday and Sunday mornings. I say this only as I tend to agree with you in the sense that my working day does take a lot out of me, although I do enjoy my job.

Currently it would be impossible to use HS at any other time. I had considered using it in the morning, but I realised that would mean getting up even earlier which I did not want to do. It would also be difficult using it in the office I work in, not impossible, but difficult.

I appreciate your comments re diet. Food and diet is something I am very interested in and I do follow a fairly healthy diet compared to most of my fellow Scots! And surprise surprise I do use a loofah in the shower. I have to be honest though and say I do not get enough exercise and do not always feel as energetic as I would like to.

What changes do I want? It’s a good question. I guess I was attracted to HS as I felt it might help me in some of the difficult areas in my life. I am aware that I am a fairly tense and sometimes anxious individual, and I am also somewhat defensive at times, both towards people and the world in general. It is a bit like Bill says, the world was a real scary place for me as a child and dealt me a few bad hands and sometimes I feel I am replaying that original feeling over and over. I realise it does not have to be like that but then realisation is one thing while feelings are another.

I would also like that feeling of being able to go with the flow a bit more, to be able to reach out and not be afraid all the time, to take life as it is, to be able to take set backs on the chin and with a little luck to have the feeling of contentment being the main feeling in my life. The other benefits of meditation in general also made me feel HS would be worth the effort.

I realise that, as in most things in life, one has to make the effort. HS is no different as far as I am concerned. So I am not expecting it to be the magic wand that "solves" all my issues, I realise that I have to be prepared to help myself too, so to speak. But as I say I guess I was feeling quite frustrated that other people were describing all sorts of wonderful experiences with HS while I felt I was feeling nothing at all.

Regards
Stevie