Hi Chris,
I think you have a good point. Perhaps I am being too critical and judgemental of myself in the negative. Perhaps what I am doing is assigning negative feelings to an event when it is only an event that is a learning experience giving me feedback that something didn't work. I have some more thinking to do about some experiences.
Don't start second guessing yourself simply based on how young or old you may be. Some of the wisest things I have heard have come out of the mouths of babes before they were corrupted by the world and "adults" who "knew better". Your suggestions for me are sound and have reminded me of a path I had forgotten about somewhere along my journey of life.
Thank you,
Gregory
PS- I am still open to suggestions from others who may read this post and have other ideas. Thanks.