If you are suicidal, find someone locally that you can talk to. A school counselor, a minister, a doctor. Get some one-on-one help.
I admire you for reaching out. As far as your Paraliminal Tapes, pick out two or three tapes that best serve a goal that you have and tapes that you are most drawn to. The goal can be any goal, not necessarily related to your mental health.
Play with them. Add other tapes and change your goals as you choose. The important thing is to play with them. You will soon see signs that the tapes are working for you, and as you build this inner strength you will be able to handle the challenges of life much easier.
Enjoy the tapes, but do call for help.
