SDs.
Re activation. You said...
My best guess is that activation should feel like deja vu or like it all comes together.
May I suggest that you forget that idea? How activation can feel for you might be very subtle and in which case you are closing it off by "shoulding" on yourself and waiting for a particular feeling. It might not be a knock on the head feeling or even eureka... it might be more like the silent oh and you'd miss it by waiting for/looking for a deja vu.
As long as you keep waiting or expecting a particular feeling associated with activation you'll forget to notice what 'is' happening and missing the small successes that leave the message of how its really feels when you are activating.
Sorry I don't know if I've managed to explain very well. Let me know if you don't understand I'll find a better way of saying it.
Alex
