I suppose all the clergy who spend time in quiet contemplation are doomed to hell, right? And the Quakers who are Christian but meditate during their services are also banished?
Truthseeker(?), your faith and willingness to defend your convictions are admirable. However, do some reading on other religions and you will see striking similarities among them (if you remain open). You may also want to check out some writings on the development of Christian mystics.
If God is all powerful, how can Satan (not Satin) overrun us?