Hello again, Shinsei,
first, a listening tip which worked for me: On the tapes, there are background sounds (waves, rivers,...). Try focussing on these if you have to focus on something. These sounds are in the middle if listening in stereo, so this is a way of letting Paul's voice wash over your mind.
<cite>ANYway, my understanding of GATI was that it could work whether I feel "motivated" or not. That's why I bought all those tapes to begin with--to bypass all the decades of garbage conditioning and negative experiences which have made it so difficult for me to do well.</cite>
As I remember from some thread here, GATI is for sorting out your priorities and than go for them. As I just now think, the tape helped (and helps) me because it helps me acting on my priorities - I'm actually very good in doing low priority things in order to avoid work...
Considering Pete's suggestion for a job: I'm a student but work to a)live and b) fincance my studies. I've been a part-time freelancer for 3 years and for some months now tried to do it full-time. As I found out, I need the more regular time frame of a "real" job to get my life organized. With this, my freelancing is a good (and fun!) way to step up my income - but I havn't got to do it. I do it for the joy of doing something I'm good at and to learn something new.
So, starting next month, I'll be back in a part-time office job, giving me the security and order to get the rest of my life organized.
BTW, having had some ups and downs during my education and work during last ten years, I found that "getting out and doing something" always did the trick. Hell, I even worked for half a year for a delivery company, sweeping their yard. I got to know some very interesting people, had enough money to live and enough time to think and to look for something more challenging. And I found it.
I really hope you will get back on track (or onto another track) and wish you success in whatever you decide to do.
Best wishes,
Jens
