Thank you, Pete and Jens. I appreciate your good intentions and sound advice. So far, I've had NO discernible results with the tape after using it for a few days. More recently I have been finding ways to de-focus my attention (and mostly turn off discursive thought) in order to let the messages "slip past" any defenses. That seems promising, but there's as yet no external evidence that it is working.
After nearly 30 years in and out of the job world--and more brutal experiences at the hands of employers and co-workers than I care to mention--I have come to see self-employment as the ONLY way for me to (at last) be a "real" grown-up. All my life I've been doing it for "them"--the good little cooperative child/student/employee, only able to function within someone else's structure. You could say that I've mastered that role.
The fact is that my educational level and the local job market would mean that I would make, at best, one-sixth to one-third what I make at home when I do the work. So, with all due respect, I both feel and believe that the developmental and practical task before me is to learn/create a way to successfully support myself with self-employment, rather than to once again step into someone else's harness and let their structure push me along.
Given a choice between earning $8 to $10 an hour on someone else's schedule--needing to invest 8 to 10 hours per day in order to meet expenses--and earning $30 to $60 per hour on my own schedule--needing to invest only 1 to 2 hours per day to meet expenses--which would you choose?
Again, I feel and believe that the task before me is to overcome/bypass/transcend any self-inhibiting (and/or sabotaging) conditioning, rather than merely to concede to it by giving up and getting yet another dismal, dreary job.
Thank you for your suggestions; they would be applicable to most people. In my case, after almost 3 decades of "adventures in economic survival," it is high time for me to do this in a way which both affirms and fosters true self-sufficiency. If you have any suggestions as to how the LSC tapes may be used assist me in accomplishing that end--N.B. please realize that I am NOT making LSC in any way responsible for my personal or financial wellbeing--then I will be most grateful for them.
Thank you again, and best regards.
[This message has been edited by shinsei (edited March 22, 2001).]
