I'd play with the New Option Generator and/or Belief tapes, because chances are you are not wired that differently from others.
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You said you noticed some results, but when you apply a goal you get no results. It is not an either/or. There are many steps in between. Since you experience something, take it one step at a time to experience more. Go for smaller, almost shoe-in goals. Achieve those and increase the size.
It has taken you 30 years to become the person you are. Do not expect instant results over night. Give yourself time. Be patience. Cut yourself some slack.
