Servant... you wear your anxiety like a badge of honour, so naturally you are going to block your chances of being successful as a photoreader. I can see from your post that you've made the decision you prefer to be anxious rather than succeed. (This is the message I am understanding from your post- I could be wrong.) I trust that you've mastered your anxiety in other areas of your life though.
Good luck with your career as a Tenor. Sorry to see you miss out on the skills of a photoreader.
Alex
