do you have the memory supercharger tape? you should try it while lying in bed once a day, then progressively try to make it work while sitting up or at a desk, then when you want to photoread, stop the tape before he leads you out of the state, and photoread. try not to lose the state, but just try to guide yourself back. i think you should take the releasing tensions and problems more seriously, it doesnt seem like you're releasing that anxiousness.
