you wrote: I apologize for my whining, but I just haven't discovered the true potential of Photoreading

Right there is your main problem.

1. whining

2. it's about your true potential

You are dealing w/ a victim mentality & this is the reason you can't solve your problem.

Why are you going into medicine?
What is your main goal in medicine?
How much do you enjoy medicine?
How much of yourself is invested in medicine?
How do your parents feel about your medical career?
What field of medicine are you most interested in?