SD,
I was not questioning your desire to be a doctor. Not even remotely. You had already stated how it was the only thing for you.

What i was doing was trying to get you to get very clear on your direction and goals.

But, you read and tend to read from the approach of a glass being half empty. We are supposed to build on success. Your original post could have come from the viewpoint of building on success.

What i'm getting at, or trying to, is for you to look at your specific attitude and approach. I am not intending to demoralize you. But, i noticed and continue to notice something that will impact you in your profession. I'd be dishonest w/ you if i did not say outright that i want you to just change your attitude. I am pushing for this only. If you could get enuff self reflection in to change your vocabulary and approach and self image to one of solid self esteem, you'd see a remarkable difference in everything you tackle.

You might be amazed even. Noone goes into medicine who is not smart. Only the brighter students think about a medical career. So, it goes w/o saying: You're smart and have the intelligence as well as dedication to do this profession.

I'm going to tell you a Silva story to illustrate your predicament. It came to me last night. I think you can turn it all around in a flash. I sense this & have from the beginning of your posts. It's as though you think the problem is, say, on your right when, in fact, it's behind you. You are like the lady looking for her necklace. In looking for her precious necklace, she passes by a mirror & sees it around her neck.

The Silva story is this: A young girl had already failed to pass her bar exams two times. She went to Jose Silva and explained her problem. Silva knew that she had the smarts to pass. So, they programmed for a dream to help get a deeper perspective on her problem. She had a dream of being adopted. When she met w/ Jose, she said she felt so loved by her parents that she'd forgotten that she was adopted. But, somehow, maybe as a very small child, she felt unworthy for some reason. They programmed for this feeling unworthy. She passed the bar exam the very next time w/ a great score.

There's a negative something to your approach. PhRing is pretty simple. It's just a technique. As a result of learning PhRing, i found out i had to learn to deal w/ stress. I never knew my body had so much stress. I found out i lacked enuff self esteem. I could activate perfectly and then freak out. I had issues. I think you have issues too.

I also think you are special and deserving of all your dreams. There is no reason for you to not have them. But, you are looking in the wrong place at this time. Please read this post in a positive manner. Thanks