SD PLEASE RECLAIM YOUR BRAIN AND SENSE OF CONQUERING AND CHALLENGE. DO NOT BE INTIMIDATED BY PHOTOREADING AND ACTIVATING. YOU ARE MAKING IT HARDER THAN IT ACTUALLY IS. LOOK AT THAT LITTLE BOOK AND TAKE CHARGE OF IT. KICK IT IN THE BUTT AND IF IT TAKES YOU 2 WEEKS TO ACTIVATE IT, THEN DO IT. THEN DO ANOTHER LITTLE BOOK AND KICK IT IN THE BUTT AND IF IT TAKES YOU 10 DAYS TO ACTIVATE IT...DO IT.If i was standing in front of you, i'd shake you out of your shoes to wake you up. Please read: TAMING YOUR GREMLIN by Richard Carson. It is mentioned in Paul's bibliography and it speaks to your present condition.
YOUR GREMLIN IS REALLY SABOTAGING YOUR ABILITY TO ACTIVATE AND VERY PROBABLY OTHER THINGS AS WELL.