Hi Shinsei,

So when is your book coming out? Put me on the list, I'd like to be one of the first to buy it.

I hear what you are saying, loud and clear. When I say discipline, what I mean, I guess is, just more of the ability to remember to practice. It is so easy to just forget to do it and, as you mentioned, this forgetting could just be resistance in disguise. I am just now beginning to recognize this process. Resistance, to me, always seemed like it would be a "no, I won't do it kind of thing". For me, it seems, it manifests in more of a forgetting, or moving on to something else, or just feeling depressed and thinking this will never work, who am I fooling.

When I read people like Tolle or about your own experiences it helps me stay the course and not feel like I am just making it up. My whole life I have tried to "fix" the way I am and be the way I think worthy people are. I have had very little success. This kind of tack we are speaking of gives up on all of that, but my ego sabotages me by saying "well sure, you are only trying this because you can't measure up in the real world. You are just bailing out." So I need and relish the sustenance to persevere that I receive from others who have abandoned the way of the ego with success. I know at some point I have to just rely on myself, but at this point I am relying on myself to choose wise people like yourself to listen to and to benefit from their experience.

You don't really need the tape set to do Sedona as you seem to realize. It is an extremely simple process, at least mechanically. I enjoy the tapes, because they are like practice sessions and keep me in the habit of doing it. They are also very supportive, which is valuable to me. I am really impressed with the Focusing techinque devised by Gendlin. I try to do that in a session kind of thing, while Sedona I can do more on the fly. God,I sound like this is my career or something, but in reality, I talk about it more than I do it.

My favorite Tolle quote is "Every time you realize you have not been present, you become present." Simple, but it just gives the whole thing the optimistic, fun kind of spin you speak of. I also like when he says being judgmental of your thoughts is just letting ego in the back door. How true!

Be well, Harry