Those kind of feelings are like tentacles. You've got an octopus in your
brain and it's sqeezing the opportunity for success and fun out of you.
Get a grip on it and put it back into the ocean where it belongs.
Then pick up a book, put a smile on your face and turn the book upside down and turn the pages at a rate of 1 per second till you finish. Which should be about 5 minutes or so 
Choose a short 200 page book that you may have read before or one that was challenging but somewhat familiar.
Next, say the affirmations that go w/ closing from your quiet scene.
Incubate. Memory Sup... tape b/f sleep.
Next day: Activate by asking very specific questions. Just let your hands open the book for you & read at that spot.
good luck w/ your octopus
