When reading the 'Natural Brilliance' book I felt as though I was reading about myself when I read about Bob. The man who thought seminars/books/tapes would 'fix' his problem. All along it was him who had to fix himself. My only problem is that I can't figure out how to do that.
I've found the Natural Brilliance book very difficult to wrap my mind around. Maybe because it all seems so simple, or maybe because I'm resisting the changes I need to make. I'm very big on oscillation, I do it in every aspect of my life. I rarely do anything completely and wholly without oscillation. I have no idea where to even start. I'm at a point in my career where I can continue tread water or I can swim. If I want to swim, I must learn to program (either perl or C) and/or must increase my networking knowledge to become one of the guru's. Preferably I'd do both of these tasks. What this will bring to my life is, increased responsibility, increased respect from company/co-workers, higher salary, and possibly a different career in other departments. It all sounds too good to be true, does it not? I haven't figured out if I'm afraid of change, afraid of failing, or afraid of being rejected if I try to move ahead.
I'd rather not purchase the NB course because I'm afraid of being more and more like Bob. Spending money to 'fix' problems, and never really fixing them.
Suggestions?
