Roekai,
Well, what's so wrong w/ taking the easy way out w/ PhRing

Absolutely, take the easy way out if you can!!! I'm serious. I now think taking the easy way out is really what the truly smart people do...naturally. So, you're smart & it is only natural that you see an easy way out w/ PhRing. That's because it's true.
Take some pressure off yourself. That's what's killing you. Bubblesofevil and Youngprer and some other kids, meaning teenagers are the people you want to model. Look'em up under search. OR, post directly to them, they'll be more than happy to help you out...or loosen you up some. You're too tight.