During Physics study i understood everything by first not understanding then attempting to understand i taught my self in my own way with my own conclusions not knowing if they were actually right.
I felt i was a Genius!!!!
But i didnt get too bigheaded, we hate them in Australia lol.
And also during my exams i remembered everyhting i taught my self including chemistry,biology, and definetly physics.

I didnt even study for biology or chem but i went alright , so my question is , can tests actually be your time of activation?

The Physics study i felt was a cause of photoreading.

Also there is one negative thing i feel about photoreading and you might think im crazy.
This year i feel like everything i learn people now know a day later but they didnt know earlier , if i learn something new its spoon fed to them the next day(the class) , if i know a whole bunch of math , one has to know more even though really i know more , but they show more during tests.
I say to my Lord God 'Jesus Christ' please lord let me be top in just one subject and the one subject that brings me pride and that is math.
I believe that God brang me to photoreading.
Anyway i know i sound so emotinonal today, but i cant help it because im sick of bad marks and people always rubbing crap in me.
Everytime i feel like a crap thing is coming i run out of that way but something always brings me back to this area to feel the pain assosiated with the pain thats happening next like they say come here where are u going so i choose to run and feel satisfied that i beat that bad thing but because i beat it its like something wants to envoke more.
I HAVE HAD ENOUGH CRAP.
Also it feels like people now have access to my brain lol and that is annoying , all you probably think i need help but i see this all from my mind and wish to conquer these thoughts and believ continuously that the more i study i will beat them without believing that i will still fail because **** must happen to me.
Even after i post this i feel ppl might hate me now lol but i have to say this and plz dont hate me.

[This message has been edited by mathematician (edited September 25, 2002).]