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Originally posted by Margaret:
Youngprer, just hang in there & time will befriend you. How often is that tutor at your home? Isn't it funny. Here you say you'd be doing better w/o her & your father is in the dark. That's one frustrating situation.

So sob is sob and not sol---ok


3 hours per week. So...2/5 days of the week, I have to sit for an hour and a half, falling asleep - listening to her. Yeah, "IT'S A DRAG" as she says...about EVERYTHING. Then when I tell her that's not how I think about things, she doesn't believe me 'cause I'm just like all the other teenagers she's "taught."

Anywho...I've been low on sleep lately, so...I guess I'll be tryin' to get some here. *Yawn.*

Time had better "befriend" me. It's been throwing me into flames for around 4 years. Things have only gotten worse. This year, things are a tiny bit better, and will probably get a little bit better even more so. Then again, it's worse in some ways, too. As far as things getting better from time...I believe it.

In fact, I've got a very huge master plan, that will definitely prove everyone wrong around me who believed, "he's never going to amount to anything."

A lot of kids ask me, "Why don't you ever try to make friends?" I never really answer them, but it's because I can't stand 'em. Most of them are just...ugh....stupid. (I'm not trying to sound like some know-it-all dork, it's just how I feel.)

I have an army of friends, just not anywhere for hundreds of miles, that's all. Around here...I have about 3-4. They're the same guys I've been practically living with for around 3-4 years now, and they're like my brothers. As I've grown and evolved, so have they. I'm looking foward to getting highschool over with.

It's a real shame that I won't be my best until around 6-8 years after highschool, too....because no one will likely be around to see it.


My anger and frustration - staying up all night, trying to fight fights that I made for myself...all of that lead to this gift. These past few years, trying to come out of this dark slump, it's been an amazing journey. I'm almost completely out, too. Maybe the year I'm planning to take off after highschool I'll be able to finish that book I began writing about my life and thoughts through the first 13 years of my life or so.

If ya want, I could send ya what I have so far. Just don't be expecting the way I am now to be in what I was 3 years ago. (Of course, as you're thinking.)

-youngprer