Youngprer,
Just hang in there and try your best to deal with the ignoramuses. I believe if you give things time they will get better.
Around a year ago, I was going through some of the same problems with fitting in at school and making friends. Then one day I was sitting in my math class trying to ignore the morons in the back, who think it is funny to shout out wrong answers to the questions on the chalkboard. That was when it really hit me, there was no one in the room I enjoyed being around or talking to. Then I began to asked myself things like: Why the hell am I beating myself up over the fact that they won't except me? Do I have to act like a Neanderthal to be "one of the guys"?
As time passed I seperated myself from them and I realized they had not even noticed that I stopped following them around. I saw that I had no true friends at my school so I went elsewhere in search of someone that I could call my best friend. I thought back to "friends" of the past, then I remebered a boy from my middle school who had always been very nice to me and had been interested in alot of the same things as me. I gave him a call (lucky for me his number hadn't changed since middle school) and we really hit it off, I felt like I had known him forever.
Now a year later we do something almost every weekend. When a problem arises I do not feel like I am all alone anymore, I just call him up and we talk. My best friend is worth more to me than popularity or any amount of money.
I am happy now and I no longer have a yearning to be apart of the crowd. I have discovered I enjoy life much more by just being myself.
My little story probably didn't help anyone, but I felt like I needed to let that all out. I have not been on this board very long and I do not know how to photoread yet, but I have gained so much by being able to be apart of this community.
I would like to thank all of the individuals who make this board possible; I would also like to thank all of the people who take their time to answer questions and to help others.
Thanks,
Thaumaturgy
[This message has been edited by Thaumaturgy (edited October 10, 2002).]
