Mathematician,
The answer to your challenge is simple.
The secret is to subtract from one's life instead of adding.
This story is from one of Howard Vernons' books.
One day, a traveller was walking the country side. He had in one hand a brick, in another a rock, a sack of earth on his back, vines wrapped around his waste which were connected to a pumpkin on his head.
While traveling, a villager pointed out to the traveller about the rock in his hand. He never really noticed it, so he discarded it.
While continueing to travel to another village, another villager pointed out to the traveller about the brick in his hand. He never really noticed it, so he discarded it.
This continued until nothing remained attached to the traveller. What the traveller did notice was how much lighter and better he felt after all the things which were weighing him down were brought to his attention.
Life is like that, we carry so much baggage that it starts to rob us of our energy. Your baggage seems to be your constant thinking about it. With depleted energy what's the one thing you instinctively do? That's right, nothing!
You seem so overwhelmed, take a break, stand back from everything, find yourself and go at life again once you have re-energized yourself!
LLL
Michael Saikali