Brian the more that I "let go" the more that I enjoy working (being fully engaged in activities). Satisfaction is derived from working hard, losing time in activity, growing, and performing at peak efficiencies.
But I have to say when I was carrying a load of negative conditioning that it was just work for me to be with me. Lazy time watching TV was even toil due to the emotional baggage. That is why I used to watch the clock waiting for work to end. Hanging onto and constantly defending our unhappiness is exhausting. It took a few levels of holosync...being constantly hounded on by binaural beats to get to this point.
Essentially, I agree with your idea of needing to be growing and be engaged to have a meaningful existence. I also think that that work takes on more meaning when it comes from a place of wanting to grow rather then struggling to get out of pain. Two different forms of motivation…two entirely different experiences of life.
