Beginning PhotoReading is not just starting to practice a new skill. It involves a whole different way of looking at life. There may be many issues that you need to resolve and incorrect, self-limiting beliefs which you need to release. When you're feeling bad, keep in mind that the only reason you feel inferior is because that's what you've picked up from the mass consciousness. Remember the old saying "this too shall pass." Equating a single pattern, grade, class, or present situation with your total self-worth is completely unrealistic. Remember that many people who contributed great deals of knowledge to the world did not fit into the mold of the school system. Albert Einstein, for example. Use this knowledge to feel good about yourself no matter what results you seem to be producing at the present moment. This will help you to detach from anxiety-bringing expectations which only limit your performance. One of the precepts of PhotoReading is that in order to learn, you need to treat grades as "feedback" from which to learn. This sounds easy, but hey, I'm still developing my ability to truly stay emotionally detached However, you will find that once you let go of negative emotions, (whether they are at the surface or buried deep within your subconscious mind) you can have an insghtful perspective on any situation and know the best actions you can take in order to improve your results.

Consider this first year in college as a phase of your life. Realize that if you are willing, you can make this time a transition period. During this time you discover the methods of relaxing, calming your emotions, learning, studying, memorizing, problem solving, test-taking, etc. that work best for you.

PhotoReading has been a tool which has helped me to realize some of these truths for myself -- I too am going through a transition period in school. However, there may be some additional things you need to consider or learn which may both complement PhotoReading and your increasing ability to learn about how you learn best.

I would recommend looking into some kind of meditation. You may not realize how scattered your mind is, and calming it -- reducing the interfering thoughts you may be having can be the first step to learning easily.

I wish you the best of luck. The first priority is to learn to relax your mind and calm your emotions so that learning new concepts such as PhotoReading or Chemistry become easier. Trust that you will find the book, yoga instructor, meditation group, or quiet spot in your garden that is best for you.

All I can do now is tell you what has worked for me. Having seen a recommendation on this very forum, I purchased Anna Wise's High Performance Mind meditation book and the guided tapes as well. This has helped to reduce the mental chatter which makes it harder to sort true activation insights from nervous conscious guesses.

Remember, millions of people are right now experiencing a similar situation to yours. The difference between you an them is that you have taken initiative and decided to ask questions. You are opening to find the true answers. Trust that you'll discover how to learn easily and peacefully. It may take a single day to see your first positive results, or it might be a process that will develop gradually over the next few years. BE EASY ON YOURSELF! Listen to your body. Rest when it needs it, no matter what anyone else thinks should be doing.

I hope at least some of this has helped!
If not, please say so and ask some more specific questions :-) I'm glad to help because I know your pain, having experienced it myself!
-Cameron