"Desire" and "Scepticism" ... if you've read the Natural Brilliance book, I'd say you are experiencing "Oscillation" which is preventing you from having success.
Basically, a part of you says "Let's do it" and another part of you says "Are you nuts ... cant do that" and basically what happens is you can neither move forward or back ...
This is not a technique issue ... we know you can do it, every one can ... this issue is deeper and should be addressed.
Love and Light
Michael
