hi all its been a while since I posted here. I've come a LONNNNNNNGGGG way:
I came from depression for those who followed my posts earlier here
1. I had a life changing religous experience- I wasn't sure what i was supposed to be doing so i started prayer, and the funny thing is god IS there for you. All you have to do is ask for his help and have faith in him. Well he helped me, he said to me- concentrate on my school work. This may not sound like much to you but it filled my life with a deep meaning and hope. I want to be a psychologist and for the first time in my life my goal is feasable. Im working hard on some corrsepondense courses and am going back to school next year. I gained tremendous perspective. I lost my father 1+1/2 years ago and it threw me into a deep depression. I thought i was wasting my life and dying from greief, but really i was just dealing with my pain. I now know when i feel down i will evntually be feeling that much better. For every up there is a down. and i dont feel depressed anymore i just have down days. I am SOOO close to average/normal functionablilty im blown away.
2. I realise that being alone isn't as bad as i thought it would be. I have faith that i will eventually meet my wife-the mother of my children. It doesn't matter that ive never had a girlfriend it just takes one. I wrote down the qualities i want in my wife, and I pray to god every now and again that we will meet.
3. I am satisfied with my shallow and apparantly empty life. My sister says i have no life- just because i really dont have any friends but that doesn't matter to me. I am satisfied with my current social status and any friends i meet next year will be all the better.
wo thats a rant
any thoughts
thanks guys for listening through my rough spots
walk in peace
boylanpower
