Thank you Gallen for your ideas and suggestions.

Most of my fear, I suspect, is unconscious and hard to define, but I think it may be a key factor in my chronic illness. It's sort of like fear of success, but for me its fear of wellness. I've been sick for so long that I don't have a lot of faith in my abilities anymore. On a rational level I can reason my way out of this cycle since I once was a very capable person and led a successful life. But I think there is a lot of deep doubt that I can't just turn off.

I will try being more aware of self-limiting thoughts and try to shut them down before they complete. This should help relieve some of the unconscious fear. Hopefully the SFQ will help with the rest in time.

Thank you again,
Lisa