I'm at peace, Iam2.
After re-reading your paragraph, I realize I misinterpreted it.
I, too, am working on sitting in the lotus position. I have been doing Master Lin's exercises, followed by a lot of stretching. I also sit in the Japanese position (kneeling with butt resting back on heels) for as long as possible (I'm up to about 10 min. now). This is no small wonder because my leg muscles are pretty tight. Also, I can now sit cross-legged (Indian style) for a half-hour meditation. Although it is a little like untwisting a pretzel when I am finished (and still somewhat painful) holding this position for that length of time has been a major accomplishment for me.
Best of luck.
