Hello WebCrawler:
As you are realizing, grief is a very powerful emotion. Please try not to judge yourself too harshly. You wanted nothing more than to help your mother recover and you asked for prayers through the SFQ healing group. I too believe prayers are answered for the higher good of the person concerned and that when we pray we turn the outcome over to a force much greater than ourselves. I didn't understand or accept this when my mother died at the age of 46 when I was 16 (almost 41 years ago). But I do now. Talk to your mother from your heart and ask her for her help. She will be there.
